Monday, 27 January 2014

How This All Started

      Well, this is my new blog. This blog is going to be explaining what I've gone through and what I'm currently going through. I guess this first post will be to explain how I got my PTSD. If you don't know what PTSD is, it's Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Here's my story, so I now explain what happened to me two years ago.

      I had just been starting my grade six year, and I had met the teacher once. He liked to use a lot of sarcasm, and I don't understand sarcasm very much. I would always meet my teacher before I started school so I could be prepared, this was mainly because I have autism and like to be prepared (for more info on autism and my family check out Tales From An Autism Family, it's my mom's blog).
      My first week of school went okay, but I was having some problems with math. Wait, scratch that, I was getting D's and F's and on my progress report, the teacher gave me A's and B's! Soon, school got worse for me. I was too stressed and anxious, a little bit scared of my teacher, and really upset with my grades. I was avoiding school, and I was only doing school work that got sent home. My parents and my consultant ended up scheduling a meeting with my teacher and principal, and it went very badly!
      At the meeting, the teacher insulted me, claiming that I had insulted him! All that I had said was that I didn't like school, and a lot of kids tell their teachers they don't like school! This teacher made me upset a lot, and my stress was just getting worse and worse. Then, finally, in the January of that year, my parents took me out of the school and temporarily enrolled me in the other school for the district we were in. I forgot to say that I was in a Catholic School (I'm not Catholic!) and then got pulled out and put into a public school.

      I got home instruction, and this worked well for the rest of the year. I got my new placement for the next year of school, I was getting a placement in an autism class at a different school. I was very happy because this school was next to a horse farm (did I forget to mention horses are my FAVORITE animal?)! I visited the school, met the teachers, and was impressed.

      The year went pretty well, but I avoided school for a few days in November, then went back to going to school again. I survived the school year, and had a great summer! I volunteered at the riding stable I go to, went to an acting camp, and went to two weeks of riding camp! Then I started school.

      School went well, and I even went on vacation in November. Then I got back, and started avoiding school. Went back to school for the last week of December before Christmas break. Soon, it was time to go back to school again, but I avoided because I couldn't get to school because of my stress. One day, I had a really bad dream. I dreamed that my old teacher came back, kicked out my teachers, kicked all my friends out of school, and made me do work that was way too hard for me.
      My mom realized that I probably have PTSD, and she had me go over some checklists. I checked yes to most of the questions, and my mom took them to the doctor. I was then diagnosed with PTSD, and promptly told my two best friends from school. The same two I dreamed got kicked out of school by my old evil teacher.
      Ever since these incidents, my life's been a struggle, but my friends, family, and my favorite horse Winter are always there helping me along. I just want  to thank all of them for being there and helping, they are such big parts of my life now. And now, to end this first post for my blog, I'm going to start a tradition for my blog. I'm going to post a music video for how I've been feeling throughout the week of writing these posts. So here's the link for this week's song, Lights by Ellie Goulding.